really.

tonight is very difficult.
i believe i lost my best friend. i am not quite sure what is going on. while i was home on spring break, you could say we didn't make time for each other or the effort in that matter to see one another. i really struggled with this because i felt it was my right to have her come my way since i had already gotten myself to Michigan at least. we really have been struggling with communication ever since ive been in Virginia, she feels like she's been replaced which is not the case but i am surrounded by people 24/7. i must say it is difficult to keep in contact with everyone, i bet my momma feels the same way and many others. i'm sorry but i think its rude to be on the phone while you're hanging out with people. i just don't know what to do anymore, i've sent texts and i'm not getting much reply back, i sent an apology and gotten nothing in return. i called and was ignored, got on facebook and in return got a lame excuse. i can't have this happen, i've been there for her through everything and her likewise. even though she can't be there for me when i go off to college. i can't afford to throw something like this out the window and i feel that's all she's doing because she's doing nothing to save this relationship.
well we'll see if i get much sleep over this. :(

i just don't know anymore

well i'm back and of course still trying to get back in the grind of life as a college student. its okay being back i guess, just picked up where i left off. so i have a couple of projects due this week and next. going home with my roomie this weekend, that should be fun. well i'm off to bed. goodnight

going back.

in the morning is the ending to my lovely spring break and back to the life they call reality. i am dreading going back and i know that it's going to be difficult for a while until i get back in the groove. i really missed everyone around me, you don't know what you have until you don't have it. that is totally true.
i had a great week, spent a lot a lot of time with my nephew and sister. i was surprised on how many friends i actually did get to see. my brother came home, that was an exciting time. i really pray he learned a lesson and is going to straighten out his life. i really want my BradLee back, the brother i know and love. even though going back isn't going to be easy, its what God had planned all along and i need to follow that will. i have such mixed emotions about Liberty to begin with. i really need to figure out what is next in my life, this journey is getting difficult. okay well i think i'm done now and i will plan on getting some sleep before the flight back.
bye =]

okay its been awhile :)

okay okay i know i am way behind, like maybe two weeks or so.
my momma came down for my birthday and that was last weekend. we had a good time, markie and bradlee came with her. it was nice visiting and swimming in the hotel. we didn't do anything too exciting.
i am now on SPRING BREAK. praise the Lord! i needed a break from the surroundings of school and the craziness that i do 24/7. i like being home although it is really different and its almost like i'm in a dream. i cant wait to head back and just be done in general.
i still have a lot of decisions to me made with the summer and next year, if you could please keep that in your prayers i would love it. also there is a perspective boy in the picture now and i just don't want to be consumed with the idea. please pray that i maintain peace about it. and wait for God's timing. hardest thing ever!
off to bed now. goodnight