first post from MI

well it was my first full day home from Lynchburg; what a blessing it is to be home but in ways it feels like a dream or that being in Virginia was a dream all together. this week i'm conquering my bedroom, painting, remodeling, and organizing.. this shall be a big chore for me. As next week I start working 40 hours a week, being a nanny. We will see how it works out and I pray it works nicely, the mom seems really easy going so that's a plus. I just need to know I'm going to making good enough money as if I pick up a second job, I just might not have enough time to do so. We'll see!!
Spent the day with the family. It was nice. Little man is sick so hopefully he gets to feeling better soon so we can go out and have fun! ;) I'm so ready for this summer, I'm excited to see what will happen.. even though there are a lot of decisions in the air that might need to get cleared.

these final days

emotions, emotions, emotions.. as much as i say i miss home i know that this semester will be missed. nothing will ever be the same, i will never live this time of my life again. how sad is that?! i will never be around the same people at the same time in the same places. i wish life didn't handle us like this. on the other hand, i'm ready to be home, ready to be in the atmosphere of "home". I've been searching for a job like crazy and i'm stressing out like crazy, i want something set up before i get home. i'm looking for anything and everything, been applying for any thing that is possible.
starting my last week here at good ole Liberty, not many big plans for the last weeks. Making it as memorable as possible.

the countdown has begun

so this weekend has been very busy and crazy and stressful. I'm about at wits end with people in general and just ready to be home where people know me. I have not recently been my independent self and its getting to me, i can tell. I think i've just gotten to the point where i need to be by myself and have some mandie time. something recently have gotten to me, just because i'm sick of being miss nice girl. I'm a bomb ready to explode, better watch out. on the happy note, i'm heading home in about 12 days, this is so exciting for me. I'm so ready to see my family especially my nephew. =] i swear i will probably spend like a week straight with that boy, ha whats new?! i'm also super excited to see what summer '11 has in store for me... i know its gonna be good, i can tell already! i'm ready to visit and see the people i miss so dearly and the people that miss me. its time to reconnect maybe with people i haven't been able to keep in contact with. i;ve noticed that some relationships have really grown and i have become closer and closer, i have also seen what friends were just there and which ones are there to stay!
well today is Easter, I went home with my roommate for the weekend and have had a crazy time. We had a wedding to go to yesterday for her family, today we went to all her families houses for different festivities. I think i've seen more of her family than i have of my own to be honest. its sad! I'm whipped, i dont think i've ever been to so many places, with so many people in one day! So with that i'm going to bed, so tired!

time surely goes fast

this time in my life is coming to a close rather quickly; i'm not so sure how i feel about this. like i miss home and all but i know home will always be there. this time i've spent in Lynchburg therefore will not be. i've had so many learning experiences, so many good times with new friends, some lifetime friends. i know i'll never be able to come back to what has happened during this time. i just really want to say i will miss my roommate a ton, i cant even comprehend how much she means to me in such a short amount of time. we just connected from the start and i knew it was gonna be good. i've made a few friends outside of her, but for the most part its "us" all the time 27/7, unless we are in class. classes suck anyhow, i'm about ready to give up. i know i need to finish strong and i'm really trying to get the motivation back to do so but you see fun and friends just looks better. i still dont know what i will be doing for the summer, let alone the fall. i have applied a few places, schools and work places. i guess we'll just see what is in store. i'm just sitting back and waiting (not very patiently). i'm the kind of person that likes things in place before they actually get to the time, so this is really stressing me out. i've been stressing with the whole boy issues and i've been trying to let that go. he surely will come in his own time. i guess, maybe, thats just what i've been told. thats okay i cant handle more stress right now anyhow. okay well on that not so happy note!

Change is all i need!

This has been one of the worse weeks of my life, my feelings for Liberty have been going up and down and I just don't understand. I have come to a conclusion that all guys are douche bags and they don't ever know what they want. I've just had a couple bad experiences recently with guys and I just don't understand, I'm nothing but nice to them, i guess maybe I'm too nice. Classes are done in 5 weeks and i have mixed emotions about going back to Michigan. I have no clue what I will be doing with my life, I've started applying to jobs and there are a few options open. Now I'll just have to wait and see what happens with each of them! I'm still really struggling with what to do in the fall, just work or I've really been thinking about going to Cornerstone. I would indeed work while I'm up there hopefully to help with cost and whatnot. There are a lot of pro's and con's about Cornerstone and I think I just really need to sit down and just figure it out or I just need to apply! Well I don't know anymore I suppose I still have some time to make these decisions and we'll just see what happens. Okay well another day with another class tomorrow, better be getting myself to sleep so i'm not exhausted!

really.

tonight is very difficult.
i believe i lost my best friend. i am not quite sure what is going on. while i was home on spring break, you could say we didn't make time for each other or the effort in that matter to see one another. i really struggled with this because i felt it was my right to have her come my way since i had already gotten myself to Michigan at least. we really have been struggling with communication ever since ive been in Virginia, she feels like she's been replaced which is not the case but i am surrounded by people 24/7. i must say it is difficult to keep in contact with everyone, i bet my momma feels the same way and many others. i'm sorry but i think its rude to be on the phone while you're hanging out with people. i just don't know what to do anymore, i've sent texts and i'm not getting much reply back, i sent an apology and gotten nothing in return. i called and was ignored, got on facebook and in return got a lame excuse. i can't have this happen, i've been there for her through everything and her likewise. even though she can't be there for me when i go off to college. i can't afford to throw something like this out the window and i feel that's all she's doing because she's doing nothing to save this relationship.
well we'll see if i get much sleep over this. :(

i just don't know anymore

well i'm back and of course still trying to get back in the grind of life as a college student. its okay being back i guess, just picked up where i left off. so i have a couple of projects due this week and next. going home with my roomie this weekend, that should be fun. well i'm off to bed. goodnight